Tuesday, July 31, 2007

endowment for the farts

Me: dont even get me farted
A: hahaha
fart buchwald
me: hahah
farts and crafts
A: language farts
remember that subject?
what did that even entail
me: reading
A: hahah
yer right!
reading comp
me: it's like the baby version of my major in college
communication farts
A: hahahaha
liberal farts college
me: hahaha
the worst is when people take themselves too seriously and go off to fart school and study high fart
A: hahahaha
me: blech
A: fart history major
me: hahah
A: what is fart?
my favorite is postmodern fart
me: that's a good question
it's very subjective
i haven't been to a fart museum in a while
A: mmmm
National Gallery of Fart
me: Muesum of Modern Fart

i'm gonna be sicko

Responses to the following email sent to friends 7/29/07

Subject: have you seen sicko?

it made me want to marry a foreign man and get the hell out of this grueling country.


Leland: not yet, ill check it out this weekend. luckily i get universal health care because of my tribe's treaties with the US gov't. I actually recently wrote a blog on it on my myspace title IHS:America's Healthcare Solution.

Asie: dude, i'm so glad you said that....I'm totally planning on living in London, Paris, Dubai, and somewhere in south america. lets do it. where is my british/foreign boyfriend?!

Tanya: Haven't seen it, but want to. Have you talked to Liz about it--she has thoughts too.

Liz: seriously though....i cried more than once....i did get my period thenext day though...quite emotional!

Smita: no, i haven't seen it yet.

Cara: Have not seen Sicko, but heard it was very eye opening. Want to see Simpsons :)

Ashley: haven't see it, but you have to remember that he's a documentarian who wants you to think that health care is better everywhere else in the world but here... and it's not necessarily the case. people from foreign countries that he's highlighted have said he makes it sound too good to be true, and it's not. that all being said, i'm sure when i see it i'll feel the same way!

Liz K. No, I haven't seen it because I'm afraid i will have the same reactions.

Jessica: Haven't seen it yet but I'm dying to (no pun intended). PS I hear Simon is still available!! ("I love Hilary," "I have to wake up early")

Rachel: I cried with rage when I got home from "Sicko." I feel your pain.

little miss perceptions

Seeing something is changing something

The process of identifying self inevitably involves a loss (As well as a gain)

As we clarify our perceptions, we lose our misperceptions

As we eliminate ambiguity, we lose illusion. we arrive at clarity and clarity creates change

We are often rocked by waves of sorrow

--->Tree as a bird<---

As we gain or regain our identity we lose the false self we were sustaining

By tossing out the old and unworkable, we make room for the new a suitable

There is both tension and relief; long frozen feelings thaw, melt, cascade, flood and often overrun their container

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Thursday, July 19, 2007

the broads are back in town

breakin' down 2: electric boogaloo

I was up front and center for a friend's nervous breakdown today. Yes, horrifying and sad. Also fascinating.

A nervous breakdown is not a clinical term, but can apply to many different situations in which someone begins to exhibit symptoms of different mental illnesses, or heavy emotional stress. The term nervous breakdown dates from a much older diagnosis of particularly women who suddenly became unable to function in their lives. Usually first symptoms are or were ignored, prompting what is now known as a psychotic break from reality, or a psychotic episode. This may show up in the form of an attempted suicide, or extreme behavior that requires hospitalization.

Since many different illnesses can cause what many term a “nervous breakdown,” it is difficult to describe symptoms. Perhaps the greatest predictor of nervous breakdown is familial history of mental instability. Those who have family members with major depression, bipolar, anxiety disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, or schizophrenia are more likely to be at risk for these mental illnesses. Undiagnosed illnesses in family members from the past may manifest in alcoholism or abusive behavior.

Those undergoing high levels of stress, for example after the death of a parent, spouse, or child, or who have been through a messy divorce are more likely to have a “nervous breakdown” if they are predisposed toward certain mental illnesses. As well, even those who do not have a predisposition toward mental illness can have a nervous breakdown if they suffer from post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). PTSD can manifest years after a single traumatic event, and may be triggered by a situation that seems similar. With those who have undergone trauma, early counseling can help prevent a nervous breakdown.

Thus symptoms may differ for describing a nervous breakdown, but one can look for the following behaviors as possible symptoms that might precipitate a psychotic episode:

  • Disinterest in work or family life
  • Disinterest in social life or alienation from previously close friends and family
  • Sleep disruption or much longer periods of sleep
  • Significant changes in appetite, such as eating too little or too much
  • Paranoid thoughts, such as the thought people are trying to harm you
  • Thoughts of grandeur or invincibility
  • Feelings of persistent anxiety or panic attacks
  • Hearing voices
  • Seeing people who are not there
  • Thoughts of dying or wish to die
  • Exhibiting strong or violent anger
  • Having flashbacks to a prior traumatic event
  • Increasing dependence on alcohol or drugs
  • Inability to pursue a normal life, normal activities or normal relationships

The above list is only a few of the possible symptoms associated with what might become a nervous breakdown or psychotic break. Any and all of these symptoms suggest seeing a psychiatrist for diagnosis, and also possibly a therapist to talk over difficult feelings. All people, at one point or another, may experience extreme emotional changes due to grief or to life changes like losing a job. These are good times to get the assistance of a therapist, as talk therapy can be tremendously helpful in dealing with significant emotional overload.

Source: http://www.wisegeek.com/what-are-the-symptoms-of-a-nervous-breakdown.htm

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

current mood: pickles

Monday, July 16, 2007

spirit fingers!!

"Whether you think you can or you can't, you're right!"

-Henry Ford!

The Quadrimuthafuckincycle

Note: This hyperlink is beautiful, but it will take you to google images. If for some reason, you really want to read about the Quadricycle, I would suggest you go here: http://www.hfmgv.org/exhibits/showroom/1896/quad.html.


Wednesday, July 4, 2007

about your friend, the addict

It will only get worse. It might get better. The end.

vend me my friend

I want this.

So I can take pictures of these.


And God-willing, one of these.

still going bananas

Day two. Again.

going bananas

Day one. Again.

this shit is bananas

The Banana Bunker.

atm live!

ATM Live! from bobsnead and Vimeo.

fucking brilliant art

I was exposed to a most amazing PBS doc at the beach this weekend (thanks jb, if I could hyperlink, I so would)


I devoured episode after episode of Art: 21. I watched until my eyes blinked themselves shut and I shuddered with sleep. So many new (to me) artists now walking weirdly across my synaptic tight ropes.

Art art art art art art art.

I want to own art:21. I want to see more art. Make more art. Learn more about these and other artists.

Mathew Barney
Sally Mann
Andrea Zittel
Mel Chin
Bruce Nauman
Kiki Smith
Paul Pheiffer
Tim Hawkinson
So Ho Sue

I also want this DVD box set

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

it's so hard to say dubai to yesterday

You say Dubai and I say hello
I don't know why you say Dubai I say hello
I'd like Dubai a vowel
Dubai and sell
Rwanda Sykes Hall
A fish called Rwanda
Namaste in touch
Namaste the night
Namaste cool
Namaste the same

spirit fingers!!

"It is very hard to reach for new adventures and growth in our lives when our hands are full, holding on to the baggage and excesses of our past."