what an ass I am

I called my dad to beg for money today and I totally lost my nerve. I couldn't bring myself to ask. He was too adorable, and I didn't want to out myself as the selfish, desperate, ungrateful person that I am. I didn't want him to think I was calling him just to ask him to send me a check because I have 62 dollars in my checking account that I know will not last me until Friday and that I will have to eat oatmeal for lunch every day this week and that I don't know how to check my USAA balance. I wanted him to think I was calling just to say hello. And that's what I did. I called just to say hello.